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Weekly Reset Log #2 — Progress, Patterns, and Reality Checks

Somay — Sun, 22 Mar 2026 15:44:14 +0000

This week was better than the last one.

Not exceptional, but stable.

Academics: Understanding the System

I scored average in most of my college subjects.

Nothing impressive, but I figured out something more useful:
how professors are actually grading.

That matters more than raw effort.

Once you understand evaluation patterns, you can:

Focus on what gets marks
Avoid wasting effort on things that don’t

Creative Work

I wrote a few pieces this week.

I’m not just working on technical skills — writing is part of my process.

It helps in:

Thinking clearly
Expressing ideas
Staying consistent outside of code

Real-World Exposure

I’m part of a club where we teach underprivileged kids.

This week involved school drives:

Interacting with principals
Talking to teachers
Engaging with students

The approach is unstructured and a bit chaotic, but it works.

Not everything effective is optimized.

Physical Consistency

Workout stayed consistent.

Saw small progress.

Nothing dramatic, but consistency matters more than intensity right now.

Work Output Reality

Average productive time:
~1 hour/day

That’s low.

But it’s still better than where I was before: 0 hours.

Right now, the goal is:
stabilize → then scale

The Misconception

There’s a common assumption:

If someone:

Works out
Builds things
Has hobbies
Has some discipline

Then they must have everything figured out.

That’s not true.

You can check all those boxes
and still feel completely lost some days.

Pattern Awareness

I’m expecting a drop around the 29th.

Either:

Low energy
Or self-sabotage

This isn’t new.

The difference this time is:
I’m aware of it.

And awareness is the first step to breaking the cycle.

Plan Forward

Maintain minimum 1 hour of work daily
Increase gradually
Continue DSA + ML
Keep weekly logs consistent

No extreme targets.

Just controlled progression.

Weekly Reset Log #1 — Revising ML, DSA, and Fixing Knowledge Gaps

Somay — Tue, 10 Mar 2026 04:43:01 +0000

I said I would post weekly updates instead of disappearing again, so here’s the first one.

This week wasn’t about building anything big.
It was mostly about getting back to fundamentals again.

Restarting (Again)

I revised my Machine Learning and DSA basics this week.

And honestly, this is probably the 10th time I’ve restarted these topics.

That sounds bad, but restarting is better than pretending you're progressing when you're actually stuck.

Revisiting fundamentals helps in two ways:

You notice gaps you ignored before

Concepts start connecting instead of staying isolated

Next Focus: Trees

Tomorrow I’m starting Trees in DSA.

Linked lists and other basics were mostly revision, but trees are where things usually start getting more interesting.

The goal right now isn’t speed.

It’s understanding patterns properly before jumping ahead.

Fixing an Embarrassing Gap: APIs

Another thing I studied this week was APIs.

The funny part is that I already studied web development earlier, but I never properly sat down to understand APIs from the ground up.

So this week I finally went through the basics:

What APIs actually do

How requests and responses work

Why REST patterns exist

Sometimes the most basic concepts are the ones we skip.

Outside of Tech

Workout was consistent this week, which is a win.

Sleep schedule is still bad, which is not.

Trying to fix everything at once usually fails, so the current strategy is simple:

Keep workouts consistent

Study regularly

Fix sleep next

Plan for Next Week

Start Trees in DSA

Continue ML revision

Keep weekly updates going

Let’s see if consistency finally sticks this time.

No More “This Series”: Why I’m Restarting DSA and ML (Again)

Somay — Tue, 03 Mar 2026 20:04:23 +0000

I’ve announced “new series” more times than I can defend.

Every time:

Big energy.
Daily posts.
Strong start.
Quiet disappearance.

No dramatic reason. Just inconsistency.

So this time, I’m not promising daily uploads or some productivity arc.

I’m committing to something smaller:
One post a week.

Why Weekly Instead of Daily?

Daily content sounds impressive.
Weekly content is sustainable.

Daily posting:

Optimizes for dopamine.
Burns discipline fast.
Turns learning into performance.

Weekly posting:

Forces depth.
Requires actual progress.
Builds long-term proof of work.

I’d rather compound slowly than collapse again.

Reset Plan (Till the 7th)

I’ve got a short break, and I’m using it as a reset window.

Focus areas:

Data Structures & Algorithms
Machine Learning

No jumping around.
No 10-course tabs open.
No fake productivity.

Just:

Solve.
Understand patterns.
Document learning.
Repeat.

Why I’m Posting At All

This isn’t about motivation.

It’s about accountability.

When progress is public:

You think before quitting.
You measure consistency.
You build visible proof of growth.

If you’re into tech, I’ll be writing on dev.to.
If you want to see the human behind the grind, that’s on Instagram.

No hype this time.
Just execution.

Let’s see if weekly consistency beats my old patterns.

Life update:- Starting content creation

Somay — Mon, 26 Jan 2026 14:49:32 +0000

Do you guys remember I was going to start posting like a content creator, normal stuff before work
@probame._ my instagram handle guys, support PLSSS

Day 14: When Restarting Feels Heavy

Somay — Mon, 19 Jan 2026 04:57:27 +0000

The Restart Problem

Day 14 wasn't great. There's this thing that happens when you restart after losing progress - you just don't feel like doing it. You know you've been here before, you know you lost ground, and it makes every action feel heavier.

Kept getting distracted today. Brain wouldn't cooperate.

The Basics Failed

Didn't wake up early. Didn't shower. Yeah, I know how that looks when I'm supposed to be proving consistency. But I'm being honest about it rather than pretending everything's fine.

Some days you can't even handle the basics. That's just reality.

Adjusting Expectations

Managed to study computer networks today. Not ML, not DSA - my brain isn't in a good enough state to handle that level of complexity right now.

So I'm covering what's in my college syllabus instead. It's an easier entry point. Still learning, still making progress, just at a pace my current mental state can handle.

Sometimes you have to meet yourself where you are instead of forcing yourself to be where you think you should be.

The Small Workout

Had a small evening workout. At least that happened. It's something.

The 3-Day Plan

Thinking for the next 3 days I'll stick to this approach - college material and light workouts. Then move back to DSA and ML when my head's clearer.

Not giving up on the harder stuff, just giving myself a ramp instead of jumping straight into the deep end.

Day 14 Reality

Not every day is gonna be good. Some days are just about showing up even when it feels pointless. Even when you're distracted and unmotivated and can't do the basic things you're supposed to do.

This is one of those days.

Day 14 done. 11 days till jan 31.

Day 13: The 12-Day Gap and Coming Back

Somay — Fri, 16 Jan 2026 21:05:53 +0000

The Honest Part

Day 13. But it's been 12 days since I posted day 12. Yeah, I know how that looks.

Mental and physical health took a dip. Not gonna sugarcoat it or make excuses - it got bad enough that I couldn't show up. But I'm back now, without meds support this time. Just dealing with it raw.

The Consistency Problem

I know what this pattern looks like. Someone who posts for a few days, disappears for weeks, comes back with renewed energy and promises to do better. Rinse and repeat.

It makes me look like someone who's only consistent for show. Like I'm performing productivity rather than actually being productive. And honestly? Maybe that's partially true. Maybe I haven't figured out real consistency yet.

But I'm gonna try to earn that trust back - yours if you're reading this, but mostly my own.

The Test

Today is January 17th. January 31st is my deadline.

If I can stay consistent till then - actually show up every day, post every day, do the work every day - then maybe this time is different. Maybe I've actually figured something out about discipline and showing up even when everything feels hard.

If I don't make it to the 31st? Then you were right to be skeptical. And I'll have to face that honestly instead of making more excuses.

No Promises This Time

Not gonna promise I've changed or that "this time is different" or any of that motivational speech stuff. Just gonna show up and let the actions speak.

Day 13. 14 days till the test.

Let's see what happens.

Looking for Short-term Web Dev & Writing Gigs (2 months)

Somay — Mon, 29 Dec 2025 08:38:18 +0000

Hey everyone,

I’m planning to start content creation in 2 months and need to make some money to buy my setup. I can take on:

Frontend development projects (React, HTML/CSS/JS, Tailwind)

Writing (tech blogs, articles, documentation)

I’m looking for short-term gigs/projects where I can contribute immediately. I’m flexible and can deliver quickly.

If you have opportunities or know someone looking for help, please DM me or reply here.

Thanks in advance!

Day 12: When Motivation Shifts

Somay — Mon, 22 Dec 2025 09:17:37 +0000

Something Changed

Day 12 and I'm not gonna pretend this sounds like my usual posts. Something shifted and I need to write about it even if it comes out of nowhere.

Got new motivation to work. Like actually work hard, not just show up and do the minimum. Different kind of drive than I've had before.

The Startup Path

I think the only real way forward is the startup route. Building something that actually matters, that can scale, that can create the kind of life I want to build.

So I'm getting back into the game properly. Networking, marketing, not just coding in isolation. You can't build something real if you're only focused on the technical side. Need to learn the business side, the people side, all of it.

Matching Ambition

Seeing really ambitious people around me made me realize I need to operate at that level too. Not in a competitive way, more like they showed me what's possible when you're actually locked in.

Gonna be as ambitious as the people I'm surrounded by. That's the goal now.

New Chapter

I know this doesn't sound like me. Usually I'm more cynical about motivation and big declarations. But something's different this time.

Different energy, different reasons, different drive.

Day 12. New chapter starting. Let's go.

Day 11: Late Start and Bike Accidents

Somay — Wed, 17 Dec 2025 14:17:04 +0000

The Late Wake Up

Woke up at 1 PM today. Super late even by my standards. But you know what, not gonna beat myself up about it. Sometimes your body just needs the rest.

Went through the usual - shower, breakfast, knocked out 1 leetcode question, hit the workout, had lunch at 7 PM. Now I'm posting this at 8 so I can be done with all the social media updates and get into actual work.

Planning to read through scikit learn documentation tonight. That's where the real learning happens anyway, not in these posts.

The Bike Accident

Had a small bike accident today. Nothing serious but it was completely avoidable and honestly kind of funny in retrospect.

Music was too good and I forgot I'm supposed to leave the accelerator. Just kept going, too locked into whatever was playing. That's the thing about riding with music - sometimes you disconnect from what you're actually doing.

Lesson learned I guess. Or maybe not, we'll see if it happens again lol.

Tomorrow's Human Activities

Tomorrow I'm doing actual human things - going out with friends to buy clothes. It's wild how you have to schedule "being social" like it's a task now. But that's where I'm at.

By Sunday I'm planning to catch up on all the work I'm behind on. Whether that actually happens or not, we'll find out. I have a tendency to be optimistic about how much I can accomplish in a weekend.

Streaks Restarting (Again)

Github and DSA streak starting again. At this point I've restarted so many times that the restarts are becoming their own pattern. But consistency isn't about never breaking - it's about always coming back.

12 Days Till College

12 more days before I'm back at college. Honestly can't wait. Home doesn't suit me, never has. The gym near college is better, the routine is better, everything just works better when I'm there.

Counting down gng. Let's go.

Day 11 done. Late start, small accident, real work ahead.

Day 10: California Done and Social Realizations

Somay — Tue, 16 Dec 2025 12:18:18 +0000

The Work Stuff

Pretty average day on the surface. Finally finished the California housing dataset, yeah I'm aware I'm a week behind on my ML schedule but I'm pacing through it. Not panicking, just consistently chipping away at the backlog.

Did a leetcode problem today. Maintaining momentum even after the streak broke. The number doesn't matter as much as the habit.

Updated the frontend for 3 pages on project mutiny. It's interesting juggling ML learning with actual project work. They inform each other in weird ways, the ML concepts make me think differently about features, and building real things makes the theory more concrete.

The Social Thing

Tried some social stuff today. I'm terrible at it, always have been. But I'm glad I did it because it triggered this realization.

I was ready to give everything for people who left me. Just because I hated myself back then, I thought I needed them to validate my existence. I'd bend over backwards for people who couldn't even stick around when things got hard.

Disgusting honestly. Not them, me. For being that desperate.

But here's the thing, I like myself now. Actually like myself. And when you genuinely like yourself, you stop needing people who only showed up when you were easier to deal with.

The Card Flip

So yeah, I like myself now. And that means I hate everyone who left when I didn't. That's how the cards go for me.

Not in an edgy way. Just in a "you showed me where you stand, so now I know where we stand" way. When you stop hating yourself, you get really clear on who actually matters and who was just around for convenience.

Day 10 Done

Some days you code, some days you have realizations about yourself. Today was both.

California dataset complete. Leetcode done. Mutiny progress made. And a clearer understanding of where I stand with people.

That's day 10.

Day 9: Met someone ambitious

Somay — Mon, 15 Dec 2025 20:01:09 +0000

The Streak Situation

Day 9 and I have to admit, the leetcode streak broke. Github streak too. Too many relatives around, schedule completely thrown off, couldn't maintain it.

But here's the thing -, I'm not pausing, just restarting. That's an important distinction. A broken streak doesn't mean you failed, it just means you reset the counter and keep going. The work still matters even if the number goes back to zero.

People get too attached to streaks sometimes. They become more about maintaining the number than actually doing meaningful work. If I miss a day because life happens, that doesn't erase everything I've learned or built. It just means Wednesday I start counting from one again.

Meeting Ambitious People Changes Things

Met someone recently who's really ambitious about what they're trying to build. It got me thinking, I should be pushing harder too.

It's easy to get comfortable with your current pace. You're doing something every day, so you feel productive enough. But then you meet someone who's operating at a different level and it reminds you that you could be doing more.

Not in a comparison way where you feel bad about yourself. More like they reminded me what focused ambition actually looks like. When someone's really locked in on their goals, it's contagious.

The Wednesday Reset

ML catch up begins Wednesday. Leetcode resumes then too. Fresh start, same energy.

I've been behind on my ML schedule for a bit now, but Wednesday is when that changes. No more "I'll catch up eventually" - actually sitting down and catching up.

Same with leetcode. Restarting the streak and this time being more realistic about maintaining it even when the environment changes.

Lets Be Ambitious

That's the energy for moving forward. Not just showing up and doing the minimum, actually being ambitious about what I'm trying to achieve here.

Day 9 done. Streaks broken, ambition renewed, Wednesday we reset everything and I will pause my other account

Day 8: Progress at Grandma's Place

Somay — Sat, 13 Dec 2025 17:02:13 +0000

Day 8: Progress at Grandma's Place

Early Morning (That Won't Last)

Woke up at 9 AM today. Sounds impressive but don't get too excited, I don't think that's continuing tomorrow. I'm back at my grandma's place and she's pretty old, so gotta visit. The schedule gets thrown off when you're not in your usual environment.

That's one of those things about consistency, it's easier when your routine is stable. Change locations and suddenly your 9 AM wake-up becomes noon again. But whatever, you adapt.

Scikit Learn Progress

Finished scikit learn sections 1.1.1, 1.1.2, 1.1.3, 1.1.5, and 1.1.15 today. Just to be clear - I didn't blast through all of these in one day. It took time to work through them properly, understand what each section was covering, actually absorb the information.

Too many people speed-run documentation and wonder why nothing sticks. I'm trying to avoid that trap. Tomorrow I'll work on the practical implementations of these concepts. Theory is one thing, actually coding it out is where you find out if you understood anything.

Stacks and Leetcode

Read about stacks today - another data structure to add to the collection. Did my leetcode problem as usual. Still maintaining that streak even though I considered dropping it yesterday.

Maybe I'll keep both going, maybe something will have to give eventually. For now I'm managing.

The Workout Constant

Hit the workout like always. That's probably the most consistent thing right now, no matter what else is chaotic, the workout happens. It's become non-negotiable at this point.

Things That Don't Work Out

Was gonna mention something else but yk, things usually don't work out the way I think they will. So not even gonna say it. Why jinx it.

That's day 8. Woke up early, probably temporary. Made progress on ML. Did the work. That's all there is to it.